You know the ones I mean.
They happen whether you don't work, or have a full-time job.
Whether you are energetic or lethargic or just in-between.
Those days when you can't force yourself to seem interested in anything anyone has to say, and you just stand there, eyes glazed over, waiting for them to stop talking.
When you search through Spotify but no song can satisfy your mood.
When you don't pay any of the bills or make any of those important phone calls.
When you make a huge mess (spilled the cereal! Peeled your nail polish off all over the couch!) but you can't be bothered to clean it up.
Those days when you did the laundry, and you pulled it out of the basket, but you don't actually put it away.
When you ignore the bulbous screaming eyes of the goldfish whose tank hasn't been cleaned in...who knows how long, but it ain't good.
When you run every yellow light you hit.
And that last one back there might have been red.
When you hit "ignore" to all of your phone calls and only answer the funny text messages.
Those days when you can feel your brain just falling asleep, though your eyes are still open and you have this sensation that you should be doing something important... oh yeah, you're still at work. And it is only 11am.
When you desperately need to go grocery shopping and end up picking up something for dinner and that's it. Until the next night when you come home to an empty pantry and go to the grocery store again.
Those days when you put on your exercise clothes and tennis shoes and end up not exercising. And maybe just watching TV instead.
When people are coming over and you're too tired to pick up or vacuum so you just spray some air freshener and light a candle.
This is just to say, we all get em.
DON'T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF.
It doesn't mean you are a bad person, or a lazy schmuck (though you might be lazy, who knows? I'm not one to pass judgement on my readers) or a bad wife/husband/parent/sister/brother/child/second niece/employee/employer. It just mean you are human.
And probably that you need a rest. So take a rest. Treat yourself. Don't worry about doing anything or thinking anything and just collapse anywhere--the couch, floor, bed, bathtub (just don't drown) and just be.
This whole thing has been around since the beginning of time. Every ancient culture and modern one has experienced it to boot. In I Love Lucy they even have a word for it -- "dauncy."
Evidence that it isn't just you:
"When late morning rolls around and you're feeling a bit out of sorts,
Don't worry; you're probably just a little eleven o'clockish."
"Man was made at the end of the week's work when God was tired."
“I must be overtired', Buttercup managed. 'The excitement and all.'
'Rest then', her mother cautioned. 'Terrible things can happen when you're overtired. I was overtired the night your father proposed.”
“Rest and peace should not be left until you're deceased. They are two vital life incredients everybody needs and seeks.”
"Once I worked hard and thought a lot but I never got tired; now I do nothing and think of nothing, but I'm tired in body and spirit."
“Ah! There is nothing like staying at home, for real comfort.”
“Just breathing can be such a luxury sometimes.”
See??? And these hieroglyphics are all about the significance of an afternoon nap in the Ancient Egyptian culture. Maybe.